the way you left is  an irony
that our story is now an acme
as, moving this far ahead
few thought recently came in my head


last night before i went to bed
thoughts of u filled my head 
though i have not cried this way in many years 
onto my pillow fell six silent tears 


the first one was for your smile that i miss 
and in your presence my remiss
the second was for your angle face 
and thoughts of your loving embrace 


the third came as no surprise
as i thought again of your beautiful eyes 
the fourth came rolling
when i thought of those precious time,
which we spent together day and night


the fifth came for one reason that i was alone 
i felt my love for you wasn't fully shown 
and then at last has fallen sixth silent tear 
making me realize that i love u so much dear 

i know i promised i will never make you cry
i know it hurts but please dry your eyes
i will give you whatever you need
a hug, a kiss, just tells me please


to see you cry is a terrible sight
let me love you once and hold you tight
i will do anything you want to make you proud
i will climb the highest peak and yell your name aloud


i love you soo much, i can take you high
please sweetheart don't say goodbye
don't push me away i want you near
to gently wipe away all your tears


if we must truly say goodbye
one more time just close your eyes
let your hug be my bliss
as this is what, i will forever miss.....

have a dream to be with you
knew it is mearly a dream, but it's like a flu
every time try to run away
but it always bring me in humanity purview


desire of being with you is so high
wish i would have been a barfly
in that hangover
this truth of my life, i could have deny


this feeling is so bizarre
since you moved so far
inspite of all 
um leaving this hope door ajar


even your glimpse make me abate
this is what i mostly hate
the most hurting thing is


STILL WHY I CAN NOT CONFLATE.....

ishq ke ikhalasmein khoye hain is kadar
talash karte hain khud ko kabhi-kabhi dar-badar
sumjhate hain khud ko har lamha 
ki hoga na woh mera kabhi bhi muqaddar


hai kitni mohabat kasie unhe zahir karein
zahir ke baad ka anjam soach ke yeh dil dare
yun toh khud se dorr kiya hai unhe
pa na jane kyun har lamha unki yaad mein yeh dil jale


haqeeqat ki sihae se kuch likha dekha hai kahin
jo hoga na haseel, use mehsoos kiya hain kahin
darta hun kuch alfazo ko dekh
ki fir se kahin cheen na le mujhse yeh zindagi kahin


aksar kuch yaadhein unki hasati hain
na jane kyun aaj bhi humko yaad aati hain
rehti hai muskan laboo pe
fir bhi na jane, hsaakar hum ko rola jati hain....

dekh kuch cheezo ko aankho mein nami se hoti hai
us nami mein kisi ki halki se tasveer dikhti hai
jo chaha us tasveer ko dekhna 
toh, zindagi sab kuch saaf kar mujh pe hasti hai


bebasi se zindagi ko dekhta hun
woh mujhse kehti hai, hai itni mohabat kyun
hue khamosh zindagi, jab poocha
aakhir main us farishte ko bholu kyun


aakhir zindagi har jati hai
chr mujhe tanha aage nikal jati hai
rakhta hun muskan laboo pe
fir bhi logoo ko meri aankho mein sachi nazar aajati hai


kaha yeh kuch nahi raaste ki dhool hai
hai na kisi se mohabat yeh mujhe kobool hai
par kuch haseel na hua
jaana, meri chahat ko khud ki shedat pe maghroor hai


jaana hai ki yeh zamana bada bedardi hai
jise chao use he karta humse dorr hai
manga us farishte ko maine un se
aakhir mein khuda ne kaha, tu toh bas ek insaan he hai......

when it comes to forget you, its queasy....

moving on is not so easy
when it comes to forget you, its queasy
yeah i can just pretend 
have to say sumthng, but have to wait for the end
these words always give me a chance 
my emotions are true, they are not  prance
as ur thoughts always took me in trance


they pull my leg and say your name every time 
i choked, as they reminds me what i try to forget every time 
every sec i think of you loving
with goin time it is just accruing
i care bcoz i love you a lot 
i stare bcoz you never gave it a thought 
i want you to be mine and mine always
i will give you love and freedom in my embrace
i waited for you minutes to hours
when you came, even hours went flowing as drop of showers
i wanna say it to you but um just not able
scared if i tell you, then will everything be stable
i thanked to the god for giving me something so special
but didn't knew for my good deeds it was for rental
yea you are so special and um up for you
with words less and feelings more
i love you with every moment that passed before
you say every time BABY THIS IS ALL JOKE 
i can only say i live you round the clock
its just that i dont wanna loose you
but from bottom of my heart i wanna say baby I LOVE YOU...

there are few stuff, messing my mind...

there are few stuff, messing my mind
as they are so strong as a rind
told to myself so many time
ur heart feel nothing as it is confined


tried to xplain it not ur part
but glimpse of yours acted as a dart
told this world is nothing but a mart
but got to knew STILL I HAVE THIS BLOODY HEART




kuch bhi karo yeh sunta nahi
poochu toh yeh kuch kehta nahi
sunne jo gum uske yeh
na jane kyun aaj bhi yeh sehta nahi




with a fag in my mouth, i roiled all around
seeing you again, i was astound
your love is like a bloodhound
after catching me says, MANN YOU CAN NOT TURN AROUND


why you always don't understand
just bcoz of you, um on errand
as i will wait for you on the other end
as u also know very well, that i will not understand


sunne jo gum uske yeh
na jane kyun aaj bhi yeh sehta nahi...............

i love you coz i love you.......

i love you coz i love you 
i cannot give you a reason 
true love cannot be defined
it has an Eternal season


if you ask how much i love you
i might say i cannot explain
coz my feelings are so intimate
but the words are so plain


if you ask me how much i care
i might just say SO MUCH
coz there are no words in the Language
that can describe my care as such


if you ask how much i miss you
i might just say A LOT
coz as you are away, i feel so lonely
i try to be okay, but i cannot


i don't decorate my feelings with words
i keep my feelings just pure
all i can give you is a promise
i will keep loving you more & more.....